Happy New Year! I’ve been a terrible blogger but I’ve been busy otherwise…my first novel, My Brand of Passion was released on December 22. The emotions that I feel about being a published author is surreal! And also the point of this post…
Last year, I wrote Eviction notice. I gave fear a notice that I wasn’t going to bound anymore. I was determined to be an author and get my writing out there. So I put in the work. Wrote the book. Re-wrote the book. And re-wrote the book again. But once it was finished, I just sat there. I did nothing with my book. I spoke to Amanda (who would become my editor) and she told me to send her my book, but I didn’t. I just held onto this book that I poured my time, my effort and my energy into. But what good was all of my time if I did nothing with it? So I sent her my book.
And then I cried.
Yes, I cried. For real, ugly tears. That fear I thought I banished came back and brought his friend doubt with him. What if my book wasn’t good enough? What if my editor said it was the worst book she ever read? What if no one bought my book? What if it didn’t make sense? What if…what if…what if?
All the what ifs played in my head and became immobile. I didn’t want to think about anything related to my book. Then…my editor was done with my book. So was the second editor. The cover was done. It was time to release it *Que the tears and fear*. The day before my book was released I was rocking in a corner. Release day I was a hot mess. Never in my life had I felt that kind of fear. It was a dream come true. It what I’d been working towards all my life. It was my passion, my goals coming to fruition. And I was scared out of my mind.
Then my sister shared this post on Instagram and my whole perspective changed.
My book, My Brand of Passion, is out only because I did it scared. The fear wasn’t gone. It was still there in full force. But because I know I am an author, I did it scared. Because I knew this is bigger than me, I did it scared. Because I knew that someone needed to read this book, I did it scared.
Whatever your purpose is, whatever your passion is, do it. Even if fear is living in your head, do it. Even if you have doubts, do it Even if you have to do it scared, do it. Most of the time, when you are truly passionate about something, there is fear in taking it beyond vision to action. But you still have to do it.
Go back to school. Write the book. Start a business. Change careers. Move. We’ve been conditioned to believe that fear is some sort of abstract, abnormal emotion. No, fear is a very real, human response to doing something new, something different, something that’s bigger than you.
Getting rid of fear isn’t a simple task. But just know that if you have goals and dreams, your fear isn’t just going to disappear but…you just have to do it scared.
If you would like to purchase my book, click here My Brand of Passion